i was fast asleep when she took her last breath.

it scares me to think that someone in my family had passed away this morning. she was not only my great grandmother but she's the oldest person i ever knew. i thought she could live till she was over 100 years old. even though she's gone, she's still in my mind and in my heart. her face still vivid in my memory.

i used to fear that someone else in the family is going to die. i prayed hard. i was wrong. it turns out, somebody else passed away. i was shaken for a while when i heard about her death. i sat on the edge of my bed, dumb-founded. hot tears rolling down my cheeks. i was late for school. i couldn't get my butt up to dress for school.

the signs were there. we all knew it was coming. she was sick a few weeks ago. she requested to see her siblings and children. i, knew it was coming.

i'm just mad that i wasn't at her funeral. i was at school. i can't skip lessons because, i'm lacking in school and my parents want me to go to school. why can't i be there? i wasn't at my late uncle's funeral either because i had art exam on that day. one day after my birthday. i missed two funerals and i felt so miserable after everyone's back, with their solemn faces.

we were not that close but i will will always remember that she prefers girls better than boys. she used to give me $10 while she gave my brothers $2. she would kiss me on the cheeks and i'll smile at her.

i wasn't that close to her but i love her. i will miss you great grandma. i will remember you forever.