well... i know you guys think it's nothing new. we have crushes every now and then. not for me though, i remembered saying i'm not going to like anyone anytime soon but i broke my own promise to myself. gosh! what's happening to me?

it's not a sin to like someone right? but... why do i feel miserable for liking someone?

it's a guy from school. to be specific, he's a friend of mine and we've known for about 4 years now. i never knew that something like this to happen. never in my life i imagine to like him.

it's not me actually. lately, i have this feeling that he's into me. he likes to stare at me. everytime there's a chance to speak to me, he'll seize the chance. he'll call me occasionally and we'll talk for ages about anything from stuff about soccer to survivor. there's always something to talk about. it's been a very long time since i talk to a guy on the phone for ages.

i have this weird feeling inside my tummy when i speak to him. everytime the phone rings, i'll hope it's him on the other line. if he puts down the phone after our conversation, i'll yearn for the next call.

i don't want to like him. it's not me. i have this hatred for falling in love in such a young age. it just pisses me off to think that i actually like a guy.

he's calling me tonight.