i do dream but still i base on reality. there's a line between reality and dreams. i agree sometimes i am pretentious. i may dream but when come to think of it, why dream and don't act? it's a waste of time. it sucks.

in life, there's ups and downs. high and lows. love and hate. friendship and resentment. equality and unfairness. reality and dreams. fact and fiction.

it's up to ourselves to decide where we are heading. where we stand. what we believe in. what are we going to be.

for now, there's only one thing in my mind. which is studies. have a major exams coming at the end of this year. struggling to make ends meet. but still trying. i hate it when i tried so hard. i know i've tried and yet i failed to obtain what i've been hoping for. to know that i'm going to disappoint my parents and family. the whole fiasco is like a tape being rewinded over and over agian. the same old thing happening again and again.

i promise my self to do well. still, why do i have this sense of insecurity in me. the sense of uncertainty. i know if i study hard, i'll make it. but why?

i've often read news about students bouncing back after failing endlessly. it sounds impossible but it's true. sometimes, you can't accept reality because you are so sure about your dreams.