i've been plagued by periods uncertainties for the past few days. i've learnt to doubt myself. question my self-belief. its horrifying. i feel like screaming. all i can do i break down and cry. i feel useless and i can't do anything else except shed a tear or two.

even if i experience success for now, i fear it might just be a short-lived dream. i'm uncertain what the future holds for me.

as i sit here and cuddle my legs, i ponder about tomorrow. what will become of me? i know i've survived but will i win the next battle?