apologies beforehand if i bore you people with my life events. i'm well aware that i don't normally like to share what's going on with me. in this case, i find it rather complex. hence, the need to share.

came to a realisation that i tend to get overwhelm but little things. certainly that's nothing new. everyone does it. we love to exaggerate and be over dramatic over things. however, i often find myself worrying about unimportant things like, 'have i closed the door', 'have i switched off the fan' etc. it's a constant feeling deep inside my warm heart. a lingering fear that taunts my every move. tried casting it aside but to no avail. if i don't fret over those kind of things, i'll divert my attention to another set of worries. it can get taxing.

it's been quite some time since i started to ponder about approaching someone to talk to. somebody specialising in this area of the human mechanism; in other words, a psychiatrist; for help.

this is definitely not something to be taken lightly. in fear that it might grow into something more extreme.