honestly, i was confuse with what's taking place in the beginning. i admit, i was afraid. i didn't know what i'm supposed to do. how to do it? in the end, all that matters is, your heart. listen to your heart. it's one of the best advice i can give. nothing compares to listening to how you feel. i'm someone who chooses to oppress her feelings from those around her. it's terrible. i know. i hope i'm no longer like that.

when i said justin was capable of breaking my heart it's because i believe that this time round it's more. nothing compared to my usual crushes and harmless attraction. the harsh truth is i may be wrong about him. that's the ultimate fear i'm facing. i'd rather it be me ending this before anything unpleasant happens between us. i wouldn't want to be the one being hurt by him.

at the moment, we're just getting to know each other. he's just attracted to me. it could be nothing. i'm trying to convince myself otherwise. i desperately need to be convinced.