- he who broke my heart -
(2004-08-11, 3:50 p.m.)
there was once a boy. i knew he was capable of breaking my heart and yet i allow him to do so. no longer nursing the wound that he left me with, i've moved on. however, memories of him and the time we spent together; those late night calls, the exchanging of depressing poems and especially, your intensity remains lingering deep within me. as time goes by, i've learnt to cope with the lost and secure my pride but i can't help thinking what would it be, to have you here with me. prolong heartache due to your aloofness will forever plague me if i choose to continue. although i know the answer, i just can't help wondering.. would you have mistreat me as you did if you learn to forget and focus your attention to me instead? i don't think you'll ever let go.
besides, i wasn't number one.