as i converse with him via a screen that will prolly kill my vision sometime soon, i wonder if this temporary preoccupation will turn out into anything more than letters typed on a keyboard.

i need it to be concrete.

i want it to be real.

i want us. whatever that means.

i think i need him.

after all the HEs. could he be the HE i've been looking for?

the first.

or is it all just false hope?